July 2011
19 posts
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Relief Drop
Relief. Well, at least the beginnings of it. I was able to see my doctor yesterday morning and after telling her everything that had been going on, how I had been feeling- the pressure and frustration and stress- she agreed that it was likely stress induced anxiety. For the long-term she prescribed 20mg of citalopram once per day and for the short-term, 0.25mg of Xanax to be taken as needed....
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And I Run...
I run so far away.
While the past several days have been a little better than earlier this week, today I have this “I need to get as far away from here as possible” feeling. I know that “running” won’t help. It’s simply an urge that is building up inside me that needs to be controlled and managed. On a conscious and objective level, I know this to be fact. But,...
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Morning Delay
It comes as no surprise, but still amazes me nonetheless, how much of our emotional spectrum is driven by our physiology. The stress hormones flooding through my bloodstream speak a language so deafening that it is hard to move forward, to act “normal”. Smiles that once seemed to come easy are more often than not feigned. Going to work, which only occasionally seemed a chore, has...
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Prologue
It began in January, occasionally at first, but over the course of several weeks became a much more frequent visitor. The pain in my chest felt like somebody was pushing on my sternum with one hand and pressing in on my diaphragm with another. Not long after, the breathing problems began. I had never had an asthma attack before, but it was what I imagined one would’ve felt like if I had....
